The Voices in My Head Told Me To

I just want to sleep, but
I didn't know other people
were in here.
I turn the lights on,
I look all around
and I can't see
anyone else in here.

I shrug it off,
go back to bed,
and pray it's not all in my head.

What? I didn't hear what you said.
Who is that?

I can't think up an explanation.
My heart's racin'.

I can't calm them.
I can't ignore them.
I can't see them.
I can't find them.

I'm hearing constant chatter.
It's getting louder and louder.
I'm not sure what they're saying.
They're screaming over each other.

Someone sounds pissed,
another was dismissed.
I'm feeling anxious.
Another voice sounds frustrated,
the other sounds jaded.
I've got a seat with no ticket.
Should I try to listen?

I scream but they don't hear it.
Am I fucking losing it?
I'm not losing it,
it's gone.
I'm calm.
My mind, is what's gone.
The voices are
carrying on.

I just want to grab
a few hours of sleep.
If I fall weak,
what will they do to me?

I scream again.
They don't react.
I start crying.
They keep arguing.
I turn the TV on,
they speak over it.
I leave the house
and they follow me out of it.
I have a drink,
they seem to thrive from it.
I try to think,
and it's too hard for me.
I can't shake the craziness
out of me.

Then, there's a whisper.
There's a message.
It's an instruction.
I'm being tested.
He tells me what'll happen
if I fail. I'm feeling threatened
I'm feeling frail.

The jaded one kicked things up a notch.
Oh yes, I know who the boss is.
I close my eyes, wishing it all will stop.
Then I see a face.
I'm afraid.
I open my eyes
and see the same face.

The next day...

I'm awakened by water tapping my face.
It's raining.

I'm lying next to what looks like a shallow grave.

What happened?